Surgery Tomorrow

As I write this it is the night before my husband’s partial knee replacement surgery. Fear and anxiety are surging through my veins. I’m reminded of the words most like to use in times like these: “God will not give you more than you can handle.”

But is that in the Bible?

I think not.

And as I teeter between knowing the surgery is coming and actually facing it I feel as though I am being crushed from within.

What does one do when they are feeling like this?

Give it to God.

And if you’re a writer…

You. Write.

And so I write.

Since this will be his second partial knee replacement I don’t have the luxury of not knowing what is coming.

No, my friend, I know what is coming and it’s frightening. I know he will be put under, which is risky all on its own.

I know he’s going to wake in pain.

I know it will be difficult getting him into the car.

I know that during the ride home my heart will be racing and I will wish I could snap my fingers and be home already.

I know it will be difficult getting him up the front porch stairs and into the house.

I know it will be painful for him as we get him on the couch.

I know he’ll be waking throughout the night and he’ll need help getting to the bathroom and help with ice, and with well, everything.

I know how my heart will ache for him.

I know how I’ll have to watch the man who usually “carries” me… will himself need to be “carried.”

I know I’ll have to be strong even though I feel like I am crumbling.

I know, I know, I know just how difficult this will be.

Relying on God and focusing on Jesus will get me through. I know the Lord will be carrying me and be closer than ever. For that, I am grateful. I will keep giving this to Him until my heart catches up with my mind.

I don’t know what you are facing in your life right now, but whatever it is draw close to God and give it to Him. He carries what we cannot.

Fondly,

Lu

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I will be video journaling through my husband’s knee surgery. Check out this video….

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mA7IWfobDYw&t=4s